Surprise X Present

I know,
I shouldn't just wait and sitting there,
I should find my happiness by myself !
But,
I think,
I need time.
I can't change suddenly.

Sometimes,
I really need someone to listen to me,
But,
Who is the one that willing to do this?

Just don't over thinking :)
I'm still in my way !

Settled.

Something happened on my family and I don't know what is going on.
Parents act as shelter.
They protected us.
We don't know what was happening in that few days.
We felt so scare actually.
We don't know what to do.
We were just moody and moody,
Scare and scare.
We can't help at all.
Things happened around me in school,
Is still the same but I have no time to think about that.

Fortunately,
It was settled.
Finally,
We know the truth.
Nothing to worry now :)

Real life :)

Hoorayyy
Exam is over.
Now I'm relax and back to the real life,
Loads of homework are waiting for me,
Loads of practice are waiting for me,
Loads of decision are waiting for me,
Loads of revision are waiting for me,
Loads of training, maybe?

Gosh...
I may not wise enough to cope with the difficulty,
I'm weird,
I dislike to tell something disappointed me to others,
It feels so awkward,
And I think, nobody wants to know,
And the things just happens continuously.
I'm stupid,
I may not clever enough,
I don't need a praise.

Here was just gonna become my negative nest.
Hahahahaha !!!
I just write what I like.
At here,
I can don't need to care about others,
I just need to care myself.

I really feel so disappoint sometimes,
You may curious why am I so quite,
You may curious why am I looks so angry,
You may curious why am I sometime high and sometimes 'low energy',
But you never noticed that how I try to be close to the 'O',
You never know actually you just block my way and I really really can't squeeze myself into it.
You will never know I feel so sad,
And, you will never know I feel so tired.
Therefore I just sit alone.
When I'm down and you notice it,
You just discuss behind me,
Tell and explain to yourself,
So that you feels good,
And then nothing change.
I, really really really hate to be ignored !
This is not happening the first time !

I just hope that everything will be okay,
And my sunny day will be back soon :)
I miss you so much !

Singing--Music

Well I'm recover from flu,
But my throat is still that bad...

Fast fast recover !
I need a better voice !

Hope things are gonna be better,
Hope that so much :)